A new hope :)

I just want to share the reflection paper that i was able to pass on time (for the very 1st time in a very long time) last week for our assignment in CD.

These are my thoughts about GMA, the progress(?) in our country,the new president etc :p

June 22, 2010

CD 11

Section B

Aaron R. Evangelista

2010-78552

I was only ten when Gloria Macapagal Arroyo took over the presidency from Joseph Estrada. That was when I started to care about current issues and politics. I was glued on TV, amazed by the so-called People Power, while dad patiently explained the events unfolding right before my eyes. Back then, GMA was EDSA Dos’ spare for despair. Take from that moment up to the time I went to college, I literally grew up with the Arroyo administration.

Now nearly a decade later, her well-liked support has all but gone—most polls have given her a miserably negative rating. According to her many critics, her reputation is tarnished beyond repair. Her term has been tainted with several graft and corruption charges, add to that, the alleged injustices.

Two EDSA Revolts in the last 22 years, yet we are still plagued by corruption and defective governance. This condition only aggravate the endless cycle of poverty. We are doomed to be always on top of the corruption list—which primarily weakens our institutions. Educational system, for instance is a great cause of worry. The probable reason behind this is the misallocation of budget. Does the government actually prioritize to provide adequate and equitable social services? Indeed, we only have to see the many faces of poverty in the Philippines to understand the real situation. In my own opinion poverty comes from poor education system that results to poor integrity of a community or a system of body. Up to now, corruption and defective governance continue to impede the Philippines' economic and social development.

That’s the reason why may Filipinos can't help being cynical about the future of our country as far as progress and development is concerned. Many fear that our country is not making any improvement, contrary to the proclamations of government. The rich are getting wealthier while the poor are getting deeper and deeper into the mud. Educate the poor, provide them the necessary social services and equal opportunity. They too shall contribute to the country’s progress.

Until now, I still believe that the sincerity and integrity of our leaders could play a significant role in to uplift our country. If our officials will still focus their attention on self interest, our country will never attain the progress and development we've been longing for.

We had the very first automated election last June. To tell the truth, my candidate did not win. But with democracy at work I am willing to give this administration a chance. We saw how the Filipinos trusted our institution with 75% voters turned out. We now have a new set of political leaders, including our new president, Senator Noynoy Aquino, some say that he won just because of his surname. But I’ve also heard again and again that he would be an honest and transparent president.

As his battle slogan is "walang mahirap, walang korap" I am still hoping not wishing that he will be able to deliver his promise and I am giving him a chance to help us. But I do hope as well that he would be able to keep his promise of higher quality education in the country, because I believe that an improved education system can lead the Philippines closer to progress.

Like what his father, Sen. Benigno Aquino said, given a good leader, Filipinos are good followers, I believe that there is hope for unity and progress in this country. Everything is possible as long as we would continue working with our government. The Filipinos should all gear towards this direction. This is not an over night reform, and absolutely, not in the hands of the president alone. The active participation of civil society and the collective action from the people should complete the ingredients to a better society.

university of the poor...?

nung makalawa ay lumuwas ako para makapag enroll sa bagong unibersidad na aking papasukan...

ang sabi nila ay isang napakahirap na proseso ang pag eenroll sa up..ang iba pa nga daw ay inaabot ng 2 o 3 araw bago tuluyang matapos ang kanilang pageenroll

buti na lang ay nasamahan ako ng aking ate sa kalagitnaan ng proseso at swerte rin at naipasok ako sa Centennial dorm na talagang namang maganda at mura ang admission.


noon pa man ay alam ko na ang up ay sandigan ng mga matatalinong mag-aaral na mahirap at salat sa buhay upang makamtan ang kanilang mga pangarap.


ngunit habang paikotikot kami sa loob ng campus sakay ng up ikot(jeep) napansin ko na
ang unibersidad ay unti-unting napupuno na ng mga maykayang mag-aaral mula sa mga exclusive high schools. "Ah..sila pala ang mga tinatawag na konyos."

I just ask myself is UP no longer aware of its role in society?

i have no question about the quality of education being given by the university
at alam ko naman na ang unibersidad na ito ay mayroong isa sa pinakamaganda at pinakamataas ang kalidad ng edukasyon sa ating bansa.


I came across a fan page of up and saw this comment

"I just want to share this, I was really disappointed to University of the Philippines of Diliman... Nakakainis kasi gusto ko sana mag transfer ang kapatid ko ng accounting course, akalain mo kelangan galing ka daw ng "ATENEO" dapat "IYON LANG ANG NIRERECOGNIZE NILA" paano na kaya iyong ibang gustong mag aral na able na..."

well i know that each college has separate standards and mechanisms of admitting transferees..in up, aside from giving series of tests and interviews, students are also admitted based on their GWA

i hope this comment is not true beacuse i believe up should be the one to give the long-term impact of contributing greater genuine educational opportunities to the brightest among the poor (who are obviously getting poorer in the midst of the reported economic gains of the country.)
sayang naman kasi ang dapat sana'y mga pag-asa ng bayan

pero siguro wala na akong magagawa sa isyu na ito..

kailangan ko na nga lang siguro mag-aral ng mabuti dahil gaya nga ng sabi nina ate, hindi daw talaga biro ang pag-aaral dito...

enrollment pa nga lang parang impyerno na sa hirap e hahahahaha

with the help of God, sana makatapos ako...at sana sa tamang oras din :))

i've been waiting

I’ve been trying for years to think of what could challenge me outside, i have been admitted in every organization i joined, i have been passing my subjects without even studying and i was able to overcome all of my troubles so easily. My life has been a piece of shit.


i just realized that my world has become small, so tiny. Life has been effortless for me, (that's what i thought)... and i don't explore anymore, i've lost my self of wonder, stop growing, basically thats it.

See? i even became a self-assertive IDIOT :))
But thanks for that unpleasant incident, i finally realized that i became too sure of myself..

Now please give me this second chance, i'll do everything..
But i still need Your assistance tomorrow, please help me.

please...

dumb if i do, dumber if i don't

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4 u

it is nice to be back. Well it has been a while since I last posted. No. It’s not just a while. A year has already passed by :D


there's a lot of BAD things that had happened since Jan1 up to yesterday, what a way to start a new year right? Well,those BAD things i've been through recently is not worth making an entry... so I will not bother sharing them..
I want to carry on with hopes in life.hahaha..


I just want to share something that i have realized earlier..
Eversince i voluntary exited from seminary, believe it or not, almost every people around me has been asking for advices about his/her problems in family, money, chosen religion and.. yes.. love ( i mean what the *bleep*)

Ok lang ba kayo? Galing kaya ako seminaryo, mas marami akong mga struggles sa loob. As if naman very good adviser na ko?
But of course i don't want them to be disappointed and to be more hopeless, who knows, God must be using me to ease their pain, hahah

but first, why the hell do i give advices?

Little do you know that i have been using my blog as well to give some pointers on how should one face his/her life in times of difficulties (blog #3)
Because I want to be a part of other's journey. Well, I could possibly view the problems in a different angle than you do but trust me i'm not doing this to make an impression i just want to help YOU. I want to make the most out of what i've learned from the seminary by sharing them in my own little way.

I'm here to support you.

Kaya sana basahin nyo mabuti mga naging entries ko, at sana makatulong ako kahit papano.

This time, i would like to concentrate on the unrequited (unanswered) love.

Lahat ata ng kakilala ko may problema dito... Lalo na siguro sa mga kaedaran ko, na syempre naghahanap na rin ng mga makakasama nila sa buhay. =D

These are sentimental thoughts coming only from a person who is in deep understanding of REJECTION. :)

First, the confession.
If you really love him, the only solution is to let him know your feelings. Definitely you should hope for the best and be prepared for the worst . Express your feelings and make it sure that you convey him if he is not interested there should be no problem in your friendship and it should continue as it is. Friendship is probably the purest relation on earth and if it moves to the next step it happens to be the divinest. hahahha

express your feeling & leave the rest to God :)


BUT

Sometimes when you give over importance to somebody( because you love him/her of course) the guy just starts taking you for granted. When this happens, the only thing one can do is to start ignoring him. Even if he is around just behave normally and don't acknowledge his presence at all.

Anyway even after so many attempts if he doesn't acknowledge your love then probably he doesn't deserve your wonderful love. Practice the ignorance act and if your earlier good deeds have impacted then that guy will approach you.

If he doesn't respond then probably, this is the right time to say good bye, maybe he is the not the proper person for you. I don't say he is bad I mean to say that probably both of you are not made for each other.


But of course, don't be in a sympathetic mode because you have not done anything wrong

Sometimes we need to set love free. If it is yours it will come back, if it doesn't, it was never yours


To let go is one of the biggest things in life. Let things happen their way, for everything happens for a reason.. and who knows there might be something/someone better that might be coming your way. Don't worry & trust yourself and of course... Trust God.


ok that' it for today :)



So if you have any problems about anything don't be afraid to approach me, you can email me aaronr.evangelista@yahoo.com, hahaha



Nagmamahal,

Ex-Seminarian Aaron =D

Kaya

Huwag kang matakot





Kasama mo naman ako at syempre .... si God

Sophia =D

Actually, this blog was supposed to be written on Sophia's( my niece)birthday, December 10; but since it had been a hell of a week, I didn't have enough time to finish this for my niece.

Katatapos lang ng prelim exams namin kahapon.

Bakasyon na naman! =D

Right after our practical exam in PE, i celebrated by treating myself to my favorite fast-food resto since birth, Jolllibee =D

I ordered 2 pieces of chicken barbeque(with 2 extra rice), spaghetti, 2 jolly hotdogs and a sundae. Everyone was looking while i was eating, maybe they thought that my date didn't show up. hahaha..

While eating, I've noticed a little girl 2 tables away from me eating the skin of the chiken which happens to be the favorite of my niece as well..

Ilang araw na lang makikita ko na naman ang makulit kong pamangkin.

Right now, i am formulating thousands of plans in my head for all the things we will do on Christmas vacation in Bataan. We will watch Disney channel( even though there are NBA games),read books, play our favorite "morbid games", play "diver", "fitsh", and bubbles.

And by the way I continued my blog yesterday and this is for you Sophia.

I love you =)

A letter to my niece, Sophia Ysabel,

When you came into this world you definitely made it a more beautiful place. It was a wonderful day for our family. You see, your mommy is my sister. And when I finally got to meet you, I was full of indescribable joy. The first time I saw you, you were lying in your mother’s arms. For a moment, we felt our hearts grow bigger to make room for such a special girl. I got to hold you for the first time, and I instantly fell in love with you.

I also remember that time ate dindi didn't want me to get closer to you because she thought i was so big and she was afraid that i might press into you because you were still so tiny that time. So when ate is not around, I counted each one of your tiny fingernails and kissed your soft little forehead over and over again.

You are such a lucky girl because we have been praying for you since you were first conceived. I could tell that your mommy and daddy were so full of love for you. Your grandparents have always been there too.

From the moment you came, i knew that we’re going to have so much fun together – I have always been looking forward to the special days that we will share together as you grow up. Although I don’t live very close to you right now because I'm now living in a dormitory, I know that you hold a very special place in my heart.

When you get bigger, you can visit me and we’ll have fun sleepovers. I can tell stories about you when you were still a little girl. I will tell you how we would hide from your mum (because she thinks our games are morbid) and play tagutagu, kumut kumot, unan unan, sandwich and patay patay. I'll also tell you how papum and mamum have loved you and how excited they were everytime they knew that you were going home to Bataan. And I will tell you that i never thought that someone like you might come along one day, and never imagined how wonderful that day would be.

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I pray that you grow up healthy and happy. I pray that you know how much you are loved by your family and most of all, by God. He will be there to help you even when we cannot. Even when you think that no one understands, He does. I pray that one day you will look back and read these words when you need them. I am praying for you, Sophia. The world is an amazing place. Don’t grow up too fast! Enjoy every moment..

Tito "Lon-lon" would do anything for you.
I love you sooooooooooooo much! =)





Since you know almost every beatles song,since you even named one of your toys after one of their songs and since i love you so much, I would like to dedicate this to you...

Malas ???

Since the start of the 2nd semester, my daily morning routine has definitely been as monotonous as my life in the seminary.

-my cousin will wake me up at half past six even though I would really prefer to sleep more.

-will go upstairs to eat breakfast

-will be scolded by “Manay”(the cook of the dorm) for getting up late or for staring blank at the plate or for reading a book while eating, etc.

-will take a 5-minute bath =D

-will wear my uniform, fix my hair, prepare my things as fast as i can

-from P.noval will walk near the fire station and ride a jeep bound for Morayta



But yesterday while i'm in the middle of my sleep in the jeep(which is also one of my morning routine), I heard a couple of guys sitting infront of me chatting loudly.



“Badtrip talaga yung matandang dalaga na yun! Pinapasukan ko naman sya lagi, pu+@*&* !!!”



wow this sounds interesting =D



“Nagpapasa din naman ako mga requirements, minsan lang din naman ako malate, di din naman kababaan grades ko, bat nya ko ibabagsak? lintik naman o!”


aw ok =I


“Ok lang yan, sabi din nung kakilala ko na naging prof sya nanlalambang daw talaga yun ng grades, shit happens pare”


=) shit happens


i used to believe in that phrase..


When i was younger i really thought that bad things happen to people for no particular reason.



Malas!



Sabi nga nila..


is there such a thing as “malas”?


I would like to share something to you..





Bad luck in studies?



Let me first brag about this one, when i was in grade school i WAS a consistent achiever. Besides, the pressure was on me because i had to follow the footsteps of my two sisters who already had achieved so much that time.

From then on, many expected much from me.

But as i grew older and reached puberty stage, i began to explore new things and forgot to prioritize my studies. I was in the middle of confusing stage. It's as if my life had turned 180 degrees. I was just a mediocre student =(


Bad luck in love?


Have you ever imagined how hard it is for a boy being rejected by the SAME girl 7x? that boy would be me =) i was so inlove with her that i swallowed my pride 6x, she's in love with another.., I even developed a phobia of talking to girls when i was in highschool because of this. That's why I have been called torpe up to now, and that's also the reason why i wasn't able to fight for my love on the girl in my 2nd blog =(



Did I fail? Am i “malas” on everything? In a black and white world, absolutely – I didn't reach any of their expectations as far as my grades are concerned, thus I failed. I have never had a serious relationship since then, thus i have bad luck.
But let's look at the big picture a little closer, shall we?

During those years while it's true that luck(?) was not with me, here's what I did realize


ü being on top is not the most important thing. I remember one of my friends told me that sometimes,realizing your on top takes away humility.

ü no matter how much i try to be the man others want me to be there will ALWAYS be those who would find fault in everything that i would do, so why the hell should i be bothered? :p

ü too much self-expectations = big dissapointments..
Just do your best and let God do the rest, let God's will..


ü Dealing with a broken heart is really devastating and utterly painful. But I guess, it's just God’s way of calling me back to Him, to make me grow as a person, or maybe, to experience that to pave the way for something much better.(which i guess is entering the seminary).



ü i need not to do what i like rather i should like what i do

ü we should all stop manipulating everything. if things don’t go your way, it can be stressful, painful, and hard, but you don’t always have to be in control. It’s all just a part of the grand scheme of things.

ü Learning is a lifetime process

ü I also learned hat i have so much more to learn



ü no matter how you try to control things your way, if it’s not meant to be, it’s not going to happen. If you refuse to accept it and force it up to “7TH TIME”(hehe), you’re only prolonging the agony =D




ü amidst the negative thing that is happening in our life, we must always look at the positive side of it.



So does shit really happen? ok let's say yes.. But good things also happen out of it.



Problems will always be a part of life, and at times when you’re down, when you’re at your lowest point, talk to God. If you ask sincerely, He will enlighten you, clear your confusion, ease your pain, calm your fears, and heal your heart.





Everything happens for a reason, what’s supposed to happen will happen



You may not understand the reason now, but you will when the time is right






So...




Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by...


with a smile





You can't win at everything but you can try.