Malas ???

Since the start of the 2nd semester, my daily morning routine has definitely been as monotonous as my life in the seminary.

-my cousin will wake me up at half past six even though I would really prefer to sleep more.

-will go upstairs to eat breakfast

-will be scolded by “Manay”(the cook of the dorm) for getting up late or for staring blank at the plate or for reading a book while eating, etc.

-will take a 5-minute bath =D

-will wear my uniform, fix my hair, prepare my things as fast as i can

-from P.noval will walk near the fire station and ride a jeep bound for Morayta



But yesterday while i'm in the middle of my sleep in the jeep(which is also one of my morning routine), I heard a couple of guys sitting infront of me chatting loudly.



“Badtrip talaga yung matandang dalaga na yun! Pinapasukan ko naman sya lagi, pu+@*&* !!!”



wow this sounds interesting =D



“Nagpapasa din naman ako mga requirements, minsan lang din naman ako malate, di din naman kababaan grades ko, bat nya ko ibabagsak? lintik naman o!”


aw ok =I


“Ok lang yan, sabi din nung kakilala ko na naging prof sya nanlalambang daw talaga yun ng grades, shit happens pare”


=) shit happens


i used to believe in that phrase..


When i was younger i really thought that bad things happen to people for no particular reason.



Malas!



Sabi nga nila..


is there such a thing as “malas”?


I would like to share something to you..





Bad luck in studies?



Let me first brag about this one, when i was in grade school i WAS a consistent achiever. Besides, the pressure was on me because i had to follow the footsteps of my two sisters who already had achieved so much that time.

From then on, many expected much from me.

But as i grew older and reached puberty stage, i began to explore new things and forgot to prioritize my studies. I was in the middle of confusing stage. It's as if my life had turned 180 degrees. I was just a mediocre student =(


Bad luck in love?


Have you ever imagined how hard it is for a boy being rejected by the SAME girl 7x? that boy would be me =) i was so inlove with her that i swallowed my pride 6x, she's in love with another.., I even developed a phobia of talking to girls when i was in highschool because of this. That's why I have been called torpe up to now, and that's also the reason why i wasn't able to fight for my love on the girl in my 2nd blog =(



Did I fail? Am i “malas” on everything? In a black and white world, absolutely – I didn't reach any of their expectations as far as my grades are concerned, thus I failed. I have never had a serious relationship since then, thus i have bad luck.
But let's look at the big picture a little closer, shall we?

During those years while it's true that luck(?) was not with me, here's what I did realize


ü being on top is not the most important thing. I remember one of my friends told me that sometimes,realizing your on top takes away humility.

ü no matter how much i try to be the man others want me to be there will ALWAYS be those who would find fault in everything that i would do, so why the hell should i be bothered? :p

ü too much self-expectations = big dissapointments..
Just do your best and let God do the rest, let God's will..


ü Dealing with a broken heart is really devastating and utterly painful. But I guess, it's just God’s way of calling me back to Him, to make me grow as a person, or maybe, to experience that to pave the way for something much better.(which i guess is entering the seminary).



ü i need not to do what i like rather i should like what i do

ü we should all stop manipulating everything. if things don’t go your way, it can be stressful, painful, and hard, but you don’t always have to be in control. It’s all just a part of the grand scheme of things.

ü Learning is a lifetime process

ü I also learned hat i have so much more to learn



ü no matter how you try to control things your way, if it’s not meant to be, it’s not going to happen. If you refuse to accept it and force it up to “7TH TIME”(hehe), you’re only prolonging the agony =D




ü amidst the negative thing that is happening in our life, we must always look at the positive side of it.



So does shit really happen? ok let's say yes.. But good things also happen out of it.



Problems will always be a part of life, and at times when you’re down, when you’re at your lowest point, talk to God. If you ask sincerely, He will enlighten you, clear your confusion, ease your pain, calm your fears, and heal your heart.





Everything happens for a reason, what’s supposed to happen will happen



You may not understand the reason now, but you will when the time is right






So...




Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by...


with a smile





You can't win at everything but you can try.