To whom it may concern

Enya - Only Time

I am just wondering at this very moment if you are also
thinking of me

Do you ask yourself as well "why the hell is it taking for us so long to find each other?"

Obviously, i don't know what's going on with your love life right now, or if you have any

how bout mine?

i'd like to tell you that almost everyday my friends are all telling me stories about their dramatic break ups and more dramatic reconciliation..
i mean what the heck are they talking about?

Up to now i still ask myself if i have ever really

known the thing they call....what is it again?

ahhh right...

LOVE

have i already found it? have i experienced it?

I always come to the thought that i finally found you only to be

disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not
yet ended.

proof?

they all left, and i left some of them as well :))

i dont know?

Are you also thinking of how we will meet?

would it be romantic? have i known you already but we are just not conscious yet that we're meant for each other? :))

Oh how I wish you were here RIGHT NOW

you see, i am so hurt at this moment

(let me tell you a short tragic story of mine)

i am now at the stage of building a wall around my damaged heart because I don't want to go through all that again.

yeah :|
i mean, i was just a frustrated-ex-seminarian looking for my self

looking for my new happiness because i guess i wont be able to pursue priesthood anymore

and this girl has just crushed my simple dream once again

a little mellow dramatic right?

but that's what i really feel

i always wanted to cry, but the same time i didn't..because i'm a man...we're supposed to be the strong ones..it is how the society molded us, right? :))

So what is love?

i believe we will never really know what it is until we
find each other :)
For now,i guess i would be just satisfied in my dreams(for you are
always there believe it or not)

It seems that, for now,
that is
the only place where I can hold on to you, long
enough to
tell you how much I love you. :)

everyday is like looking for the light switch in the dark room i call life.

but everytime i think of you i always face the new day ahead with the hope
that soon
enough, you will no longer be a dream but a
reality...

By then probably i would be the happiest man

all those pain, sleepless nights, those tears :)) those wasted time

i guess i would be
very
thankful for they all led me to you

Can you do me a favor in the mean time?

..can you please take care of yourself for me?
..can you hold on to our dream and never let go of it?

i truly believe that God has already planned the
course and it is up to us to follow the directions.
always pray

:)

an old "man" singing bato sa buhangin

Kapag ang puso'y natutong magmahal
Bawat tibok ay may kulay at buhay
Ngunit kung ang pagsuyo'y lilipas din... Bagay kaya ang bato sa buhangin?

i overheard an old man singing it last last last friday in an ikot jeep.

i even joined him in singing it and i suddenly noticed that he was looking right at me and winked
o.O

i then realized that i was wrong... he's not an old "man"

anyway..
i love (and at the same time hate) to hear this song... why?

it's because of the old "man" actually,
hahaha(wtf!)
just kidding

i don't know.. maybe because it reminds me of all those good times that will never be brought to life back again..


a stone and a sand are very opposite things, the former is solid and the latter cannot be held by hands, but in the beach, this two unite perfectly, the sand makes you able to stand to the stone without hurting you, the stone makes you float in the sand- in short they are a good match in spite of differences

and you know what?
i'm starting to be senseless and mellow dramatic again, so i better stop and just let you hear the song...
enjoy!(?)

A new hope :)

I just want to share the reflection paper that i was able to pass on time (for the very 1st time in a very long time) last week for our assignment in CD.

These are my thoughts about GMA, the progress(?) in our country,the new president etc :p

June 22, 2010

CD 11

Section B

Aaron R. Evangelista

2010-78552

I was only ten when Gloria Macapagal Arroyo took over the presidency from Joseph Estrada. That was when I started to care about current issues and politics. I was glued on TV, amazed by the so-called People Power, while dad patiently explained the events unfolding right before my eyes. Back then, GMA was EDSA Dos’ spare for despair. Take from that moment up to the time I went to college, I literally grew up with the Arroyo administration.

Now nearly a decade later, her well-liked support has all but gone—most polls have given her a miserably negative rating. According to her many critics, her reputation is tarnished beyond repair. Her term has been tainted with several graft and corruption charges, add to that, the alleged injustices.

Two EDSA Revolts in the last 22 years, yet we are still plagued by corruption and defective governance. This condition only aggravate the endless cycle of poverty. We are doomed to be always on top of the corruption list—which primarily weakens our institutions. Educational system, for instance is a great cause of worry. The probable reason behind this is the misallocation of budget. Does the government actually prioritize to provide adequate and equitable social services? Indeed, we only have to see the many faces of poverty in the Philippines to understand the real situation. In my own opinion poverty comes from poor education system that results to poor integrity of a community or a system of body. Up to now, corruption and defective governance continue to impede the Philippines' economic and social development.

That’s the reason why may Filipinos can't help being cynical about the future of our country as far as progress and development is concerned. Many fear that our country is not making any improvement, contrary to the proclamations of government. The rich are getting wealthier while the poor are getting deeper and deeper into the mud. Educate the poor, provide them the necessary social services and equal opportunity. They too shall contribute to the country’s progress.

Until now, I still believe that the sincerity and integrity of our leaders could play a significant role in to uplift our country. If our officials will still focus their attention on self interest, our country will never attain the progress and development we've been longing for.

We had the very first automated election last June. To tell the truth, my candidate did not win. But with democracy at work I am willing to give this administration a chance. We saw how the Filipinos trusted our institution with 75% voters turned out. We now have a new set of political leaders, including our new president, Senator Noynoy Aquino, some say that he won just because of his surname. But I’ve also heard again and again that he would be an honest and transparent president.

As his battle slogan is "walang mahirap, walang korap" I am still hoping not wishing that he will be able to deliver his promise and I am giving him a chance to help us. But I do hope as well that he would be able to keep his promise of higher quality education in the country, because I believe that an improved education system can lead the Philippines closer to progress.

Like what his father, Sen. Benigno Aquino said, given a good leader, Filipinos are good followers, I believe that there is hope for unity and progress in this country. Everything is possible as long as we would continue working with our government. The Filipinos should all gear towards this direction. This is not an over night reform, and absolutely, not in the hands of the president alone. The active participation of civil society and the collective action from the people should complete the ingredients to a better society.

university of the poor...?

nung makalawa ay lumuwas ako para makapag enroll sa bagong unibersidad na aking papasukan...

ang sabi nila ay isang napakahirap na proseso ang pag eenroll sa up..ang iba pa nga daw ay inaabot ng 2 o 3 araw bago tuluyang matapos ang kanilang pageenroll

buti na lang ay nasamahan ako ng aking ate sa kalagitnaan ng proseso at swerte rin at naipasok ako sa Centennial dorm na talagang namang maganda at mura ang admission.


noon pa man ay alam ko na ang up ay sandigan ng mga matatalinong mag-aaral na mahirap at salat sa buhay upang makamtan ang kanilang mga pangarap.


ngunit habang paikotikot kami sa loob ng campus sakay ng up ikot(jeep) napansin ko na
ang unibersidad ay unti-unting napupuno na ng mga maykayang mag-aaral mula sa mga exclusive high schools. "Ah..sila pala ang mga tinatawag na konyos."

I just ask myself is UP no longer aware of its role in society?

i have no question about the quality of education being given by the university
at alam ko naman na ang unibersidad na ito ay mayroong isa sa pinakamaganda at pinakamataas ang kalidad ng edukasyon sa ating bansa.


I came across a fan page of up and saw this comment

"I just want to share this, I was really disappointed to University of the Philippines of Diliman... Nakakainis kasi gusto ko sana mag transfer ang kapatid ko ng accounting course, akalain mo kelangan galing ka daw ng "ATENEO" dapat "IYON LANG ANG NIRERECOGNIZE NILA" paano na kaya iyong ibang gustong mag aral na able na..."

well i know that each college has separate standards and mechanisms of admitting transferees..in up, aside from giving series of tests and interviews, students are also admitted based on their GWA

i hope this comment is not true beacuse i believe up should be the one to give the long-term impact of contributing greater genuine educational opportunities to the brightest among the poor (who are obviously getting poorer in the midst of the reported economic gains of the country.)
sayang naman kasi ang dapat sana'y mga pag-asa ng bayan

pero siguro wala na akong magagawa sa isyu na ito..

kailangan ko na nga lang siguro mag-aral ng mabuti dahil gaya nga ng sabi nina ate, hindi daw talaga biro ang pag-aaral dito...

enrollment pa nga lang parang impyerno na sa hirap e hahahahaha

with the help of God, sana makatapos ako...at sana sa tamang oras din :))

i've been waiting

I’ve been trying for years to think of what could challenge me outside, i have been admitted in every organization i joined, i have been passing my subjects without even studying and i was able to overcome all of my troubles so easily. My life has been a piece of shit.


i just realized that my world has become small, so tiny. Life has been effortless for me, (that's what i thought)... and i don't explore anymore, i've lost my self of wonder, stop growing, basically thats it.

See? i even became a self-assertive IDIOT :))
But thanks for that unpleasant incident, i finally realized that i became too sure of myself..

Now please give me this second chance, i'll do everything..
But i still need Your assistance tomorrow, please help me.

please...

dumb if i do, dumber if i don't

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4 u

it is nice to be back. Well it has been a while since I last posted. No. It’s not just a while. A year has already passed by :D


there's a lot of BAD things that had happened since Jan1 up to yesterday, what a way to start a new year right? Well,those BAD things i've been through recently is not worth making an entry... so I will not bother sharing them..
I want to carry on with hopes in life.hahaha..


I just want to share something that i have realized earlier..
Eversince i voluntary exited from seminary, believe it or not, almost every people around me has been asking for advices about his/her problems in family, money, chosen religion and.. yes.. love ( i mean what the *bleep*)

Ok lang ba kayo? Galing kaya ako seminaryo, mas marami akong mga struggles sa loob. As if naman very good adviser na ko?
But of course i don't want them to be disappointed and to be more hopeless, who knows, God must be using me to ease their pain, hahah

but first, why the hell do i give advices?

Little do you know that i have been using my blog as well to give some pointers on how should one face his/her life in times of difficulties (blog #3)
Because I want to be a part of other's journey. Well, I could possibly view the problems in a different angle than you do but trust me i'm not doing this to make an impression i just want to help YOU. I want to make the most out of what i've learned from the seminary by sharing them in my own little way.

I'm here to support you.

Kaya sana basahin nyo mabuti mga naging entries ko, at sana makatulong ako kahit papano.

This time, i would like to concentrate on the unrequited (unanswered) love.

Lahat ata ng kakilala ko may problema dito... Lalo na siguro sa mga kaedaran ko, na syempre naghahanap na rin ng mga makakasama nila sa buhay. =D

These are sentimental thoughts coming only from a person who is in deep understanding of REJECTION. :)

First, the confession.
If you really love him, the only solution is to let him know your feelings. Definitely you should hope for the best and be prepared for the worst . Express your feelings and make it sure that you convey him if he is not interested there should be no problem in your friendship and it should continue as it is. Friendship is probably the purest relation on earth and if it moves to the next step it happens to be the divinest. hahahha

express your feeling & leave the rest to God :)


BUT

Sometimes when you give over importance to somebody( because you love him/her of course) the guy just starts taking you for granted. When this happens, the only thing one can do is to start ignoring him. Even if he is around just behave normally and don't acknowledge his presence at all.

Anyway even after so many attempts if he doesn't acknowledge your love then probably he doesn't deserve your wonderful love. Practice the ignorance act and if your earlier good deeds have impacted then that guy will approach you.

If he doesn't respond then probably, this is the right time to say good bye, maybe he is the not the proper person for you. I don't say he is bad I mean to say that probably both of you are not made for each other.


But of course, don't be in a sympathetic mode because you have not done anything wrong

Sometimes we need to set love free. If it is yours it will come back, if it doesn't, it was never yours


To let go is one of the biggest things in life. Let things happen their way, for everything happens for a reason.. and who knows there might be something/someone better that might be coming your way. Don't worry & trust yourself and of course... Trust God.


ok that' it for today :)



So if you have any problems about anything don't be afraid to approach me, you can email me aaronr.evangelista@yahoo.com, hahaha



Nagmamahal,

Ex-Seminarian Aaron =D

Kaya

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Kasama mo naman ako at syempre .... si God